I guess what we're both saying is that "good" and "bad" are all just relative in the end? Which — you know, smarter people have said already. [ He shrugs. ] But — personally, I couldn't do it. Sacrifice people, I mean. Like when I think about all the Cloud Knights that died or were mara-struck in the wake of Phantylia's rampage — and the aunties and uncles down in Aurum Alley who give out free samples and are just trying to make a day's living and stuff — I couldn't do it. I don't know how you can stomach it. Living with these people, talking to them. And then... getting a bunch of them killed.
[ He leans his head back against Luocha's shoulder; his grey hair is soft as it fans out over Luocha's black shirt. A wry, weary tone creeps into his voice at this angle. ]
I guess that makes me a person who doesn't realize his goals, or whatever. I don't know. I think I'm doing okay so far.
[ Caelus lets out a long breath from between his lips, and then continues, slowly leaning back onto his knees again: ]
So we pretend, right? Now I'm in this position where I have to do "bad" things to a "bad" person and that's supposed to make me a "good" person in the end, and we both know that doesn't make sense. But we pretend. And I don't really want to hurt you, but I think you gave up your right to not to be hurt when you launched the Stellaron onto the Luofu, and...
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I don't think I can give you that anymore.
[ Anymore?
And yet, swiftly, he moves on — ]
I guess what we're both saying is that "good" and "bad" are all just relative in the end? Which — you know, smarter people have said already. [ He shrugs. ] But — personally, I couldn't do it. Sacrifice people, I mean. Like when I think about all the Cloud Knights that died or were mara-struck in the wake of Phantylia's rampage — and the aunties and uncles down in Aurum Alley who give out free samples and are just trying to make a day's living and stuff — I couldn't do it. I don't know how you can stomach it. Living with these people, talking to them. And then... getting a bunch of them killed.
[ He leans his head back against Luocha's shoulder; his grey hair is soft as it fans out over Luocha's black shirt. A wry, weary tone creeps into his voice at this angle. ]
I guess that makes me a person who doesn't realize his goals, or whatever. I don't know. I think I'm doing okay so far.
[ Caelus lets out a long breath from between his lips, and then continues, slowly leaning back onto his knees again: ]
So we pretend, right? Now I'm in this position where I have to do "bad" things to a "bad" person and that's supposed to make me a "good" person in the end, and we both know that doesn't make sense. But we pretend. And I don't really want to hurt you, but I think you gave up your right to not to be hurt when you launched the Stellaron onto the Luofu, and...