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trailblazers2024-01-25 08:59 pm
receptacles) wrote in trailblazers2024-01-25 08:59 pm
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Maybe. I don't know if that would be enough.
Boyfriends break up with you for being too needy.
Maybe. I don't know if that would be enough.
Boyfriends break up with you for being too needy.
Mm, nothing special.
You're not wrong... I'd like a relationship, but I'm not sure I'm right for one.
I feel like the amount of attention I need is a lot for one person to handle.
You're not wrong... I'd like a relationship, but I'm not sure I'm right for one.
I feel like the amount of attention I need is a lot for one person to handle.
I don't think you're wrong for one either... But having said that, I think I understand what you mean. It's hard to be a burden on someone you care about.
Still, I don't think you're as difficult as you think.
Still, I don't think you're as difficult as you think.
You've never seen me being difficult, though.
It probably sounds cute until I'm knocking on your bedroom door at 3am for the fifth time in a week because I had nightmares again...
Or when you need to get up but I've had my head in your lap for four hours and I'm still not satisfied.
It probably sounds cute until I'm knocking on your bedroom door at 3am for the fifth time in a week because I had nightmares again...
Or when you need to get up but I've had my head in your lap for four hours and I'm still not satisfied.
Caelus. You and your friends single-handedly overthrew 700 years of established order. I think I've seen how difficult you can be.
I have nightmares too, of my time on the front and my experiences against the Legion. If I need to get up, I think I'm strong enough to carry you with me.
I have nightmares too, of my time on the front and my experiences against the Legion. If I need to get up, I think I'm strong enough to carry you with me.
You really think so?
I'd hold you, you know. If you had nightmares. For however long you needed.
Unless you're not the hugging type... that's okay too.
I'd hold you, you know. If you had nightmares. For however long you needed.
Unless you're not the hugging type... that's okay too.
Pretty sure. But even if I’m wrong, one doesn’t follow the path of preservation without being persistent.
And I’d like that. Serval used to give me hugs when we were kids. It’s harder now since we’re older, but I used to think it was a shame we stopped. You’d be doing me a favor.
And I’d like that. Serval used to give me hugs when we were kids. It’s harder now since we’re older, but I used to think it was a shame we stopped. You’d be doing me a favor.
I want to hold you.
Can I sniff you and steal stuff that you've worn before? Or is that too weird?
Can I sniff you and steal stuff that you've worn before? Or is that too weird?
? Are certain scents a comfort thing for you?
Yeah... Is that not the case for everyone?
I just wanna keep, like, a sweater or something in my bed.
I just wanna keep, like, a sweater or something in my bed.
Not everyone, but it's probably not too unusual. Everyone deals with stress in ways unique to their situation.
Garments after my training regiment might be a bit much but... I don't see it being too much of a problem. How long would you need them? [gepard thinking about the logistics of supply and demand on his own clothes.]
Garments after my training regiment might be a bit much but... I don't see it being too much of a problem. How long would you need them? [gepard thinking about the logistics of supply and demand on his own clothes.]
Well, ideally, for as long as it takes the smell to fade?
So maybe like... one shirt every two months?
So maybe like... one shirt every two months?
Is that all? Are you sure you won't need more?
[ Caelus falls silent. It's not as though he disagrees, on principle, with what Aventurine is saying. It's just that sometimes he's not sure what move he's supposed to make when Aventurine smiles like that, like it's a mechanical reflex rather than anything felt. ]
Mm.
[ His eyes flick away for a moment, and then back at the screen. ]
Sorry. I guess I just don't know what to say. It's not like I don't get it, it's just — a lot of things were happening at the time. And technically, we're not in charge of Belobog, so it was like...
[ A brief pause, as he tries to come up with words that will express how he feels, but in the end, Caelus just shakes his head. ]
It is what it is, I guess.
Mm.
[ His eyes flick away for a moment, and then back at the screen. ]
Sorry. I guess I just don't know what to say. It's not like I don't get it, it's just — a lot of things were happening at the time. And technically, we're not in charge of Belobog, so it was like...
[ A brief pause, as he tries to come up with words that will express how he feels, but in the end, Caelus just shakes his head. ]
It is what it is, I guess.
Guess I'm building a nest, then.
A nest of Geppie-scented sweaters.
A nest of Geppie-scented sweaters.
If that's what it would take to help you feel safe, you can have my entire wardrobe.
But Caelus, you know you're allowed to ask for more.
But Caelus, you know you're allowed to ask for more.
I'm probably not nearly as comfortable as a pile of sweaters, but if it'll help... sure.
You'd be more comfortable, honestly.
I like that you're soft and big and warm.
I like that you're soft and big and warm.
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