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trailblazers2024-04-17 12:32 pm
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receptacles) wrote in trailblazers2024-04-17 12:32 pm
it's okay <3
One line in particular struck a chord with him, however.
'None of us are going to control you. You can spend it Trailblazing however you want.'
He'd spent the most of his life under the IPC's thumb, essentially a paid slave if one really stopped to look at it. To have the chance to do whatever he wanted, a more free and unbound life? It felt odd to consider but the more he heard about it? Aventurine really was considering this, his hand fully overlapping Caelus's while reveling in the comforting warmth of the other man's presence. ]
As long as you are aware I have blood on my hands. The last of my people...
[ Aventurine exhaled a soft breath as that hand ran through his hair, gaze landing on Caelus with a genuinely soft and gentle look on his face in this moment. Though there was a touch of sadness that lingered beneath the surface. ]
If I'm truly honest? I'd love for a place to call my own and it's... my choice. Not anyone else's.
[ The things he's seen and experienced? He had an out here and this didn't mean he had to quit being a gambler. He could lend his luck to the trailblazers and their expedition. Though unlike the IPC... they weren't using him. He wasn't being forced to do this at all. ]
What i'm saying is... yes. As long as your family agrees to it? I wouldn't mind becoming one of the nameless.
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Caelus realizes with a jolt that he might be in love.
He also doesn't know what to do with this information.
Anxiously, he licks his lips and nods, trying to put the odd, fluttering excitement in his chest somewhere in the back of his mind. ]
Okay. Okay. They'll agree. Don't worry.
[ They will; he's certain of it. Himeko and Welt are not the types of people that do not forgive. ]
None of us would judge you. You'll have a place to call your own.
[ A thousand different things are running through Caelus's mind in the moment. Like how nice it will be to have a new crew member; how happy everyone else will be; what will happen to Penacony from here; will the IPC chase after Aventurine like a lost asset. Things like that. How happy Aventurine will be, once he realizes that everything Caelus promised is real. That feels like the most important thing in the moment, even though Caelus is certain that it shouldn't be, and maybe he should worry about other things. But still. Selfishly, he wants nothing more than for Aventurine to be happy. He breaks into a slightly chagrined laugh, as if struggling to process all of it. ]
Sorry, I — I'm just so happy right now. [ He presses his face into his pillow a litle bit, looking shyly at Aventurine out of the corner of his eye. ] You probably think I'm crazy. Sorry. I just... I feel like we've been through a lot together. But I'm the only one who saw things, so it's all one-sided. But still...
[ He buries his face into his pillow outright, his response muffled. ]
I'm just really excited to be with you.
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It had a LOT of significance and perhaps it came down to how truthful and earnest Caelus was. Someone who didn't hide behind lies and pretty words like he typically did. Someone who most certainly was indeed shaking but from what? He kept a mental note of such information for later, feeling an unknown warmth in his chest that he didn't entirely know what he should be doing with.
Aventurine was wholly logical on a good day and a realist, so he did still have his doubts but this sweet young trailblazer wouldn't lie to him about this. Caelus no doubt would fight tooth and nail to keep him here, if he had to guess. ]
You really are too good for this sad little world.
[ He meant it as quite the compliment, wondering what was all going through the other's mind while trying to not think too much on his own situation.
Diamond likely wouldn't take this well. Neither would Jade.
They would have much to say about the fact the cornerstone was shattered into pieces and he had no doubt that the IPC was already making their move. Several puzzle pieces remained as well, but the only thing that mattered in this little room was the almost awkward way Caelus now was acting.
Pressing his face into the pillow a bit, which had him laughing softly before shaking his head at those words. If this was how things were going to be? Couldn't say he minded a whole lot, feeling now like his life was given a whole other meaning and purpose as compared to before. ]
Come now. I don't think you're crazy, but I must admit it's new to hear someone truly feels that way when it comes to me being around.
[ Aventurine had a fleeting thought that if he was to be anybody's in this world, it would have to be the one sharing the bed with him. One good thing in this wretched world that had previously never given him anything of his own, and a new reason for existing in this vast universe that needed much more exploration. ]
I at least know you mean it. There's no deception or lies here. You're too earnest for that.
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This... isn't going to be easy. But: it's true. Caelus is going to fight tooth and nail to keep Aventurine here. To keep him safe.
The Trailblazer peeks back out from the pillow after his momentary bout of embarrassment fades away. It's... nice, honestly. It's nice to hear that Aventurine trusts him. It's also very sensible — Caelus is self-aware enough to know that he doesn't give anyone much reason to think that he would lie to them. But still. He's happy to hear it. He smiles. ]
...Mm.
[ Lazing in bed with Aventurine has been nice, but they probably can't do this forever. Caelus's hand finds the blond's again; he squeezes their fingers together, and then he smiles. ]
Well... what next? Do you want to get up and get something to eat? [ Abruptly, he remembers that Aventurine did technically take a hit from Acheron's sword. ] Oh, er — actually, if you're not feeling well, I can bring something back for you instead —
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Realizing that he now had more of a purpose to keep living. A new lease on life and a path opened to him that he himself had taken instead of letting another guide him onto. He wasn't stupid. The IPC were a scarily large organization and the ten stonehearts had impressive power at their behest, so it was going to be one hell of a fight to make this work.
Not that he was going to think much more on that, Caelus' hand quite warm when it found his own. It was fleeting, brief but enough to have him laughing softly. A warm, happy sound as he gave his companion's hand a small squeeze in turn. ]
You've already done so much for me. It's fine.
[ Aventurine's tone was as smooth as ever, and he made to go and sit up when a stabbing pain lanced through his chest and stomach. A low hiss escaped him and he looked down to see bandages wrapped about him, a reminder that he sure had taken quite the hit from that emanator.
If he hadn't been on the path of preservation, he knew he wouldn't be alive right this moment. Especially if the injury was still this bad. Damn. Maybe things were a bit worse than he'd originally anticipated. ]
...On second thought... perhaps it would be wiser to not move much at the moment.
[ Ow. He was not a fan of pain one bit. So it appeared as if his lovely little trailblazer would have to go and get something to eat. ]
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Wait. They haven't done that before? But — well, it just felt so natural in the moment. Caelus will think about it later. ]
Silly goose. Don't move, okay? Just stay here. I'll get you something.
[ It's a shame. He's so nice and comfortable, in bed with the most beautiful man he thinks he's ever seen, but he has to get up now, because the most beautiful man in the universe should get something to eat. Calmly, Caelus extricates himself from the bed, leaving his tantalizing warmth behind. He pulls on his jacket and his shoes, then shuffles over toward the door.
Aventurine won't be able to see the man outside, but apparently someone's been standing there.
Caelus blinks. "Dan Heng? You're here?"
It's funny; Aventurine may have actually never seen Dan Heng before, though he's probably at least been briefed on the young man as one of the members of the Express. He still won't be able to see Dan Heng from his vantage point on the bed, though he'll be able to hear the archivist's voice. "Himeko told me to stand guard while you two recovered. I see you're already up and out of bed."
"Yeah, but he's not." Caelus pauses awkwardly, then continues: "Um, we're both kinda hungry, and he can't get up. I was gonna get something to eat..."
"Stay here." The young man's tone leaves no room for argument. "I'll make you a meal."
"I can make it myself —"
"I'm sure you can. Whether or not it would be nutritionally balanced is another story. Stay here."
The door closes.
Feeling faintly embarrassed, like he's been upstaged by an older brother in front of the guy he likes, Caelus shuffles back to the bed where Aventurine's resting and coughs to clear his throat. ]
Er... well, you heard him. He's getting us food... I guess.
[ He looks embarrassed, too. Well, having a family to rely on is not a bad thing... ]